Its been too long since I’ve came to my blog to write anything. Its deffinetly too long since Ive seen your beautiful faces. If only you knew what I have been up to the year and a half since I last seen you. You would be disappointed as have many but also proud. I dont even know where to start. LaSabra . . . . wow I wasnt expecting you. Being pregnant with you was wonderful!! in so many ways. You saved me. Thank you. Ill write another post going into more details of my journey while I carried you. So this past year and a half. Ive battled many roads, and hardships. I can now say that I have made it out safely through much of it. The most thing to fight off was/is the urge to be with your father. Francis, as much as Id like to avoid the subject. He is a main component to our story whether id like it or not. You should know that after court. . . . after my rights to you all was terminated. I went with him immediately. It’s a bit of a fog but I dont remember anyone else being there. . . . I went to the trax station and cried in his arms. We cried together. At that time we both knew we was pregnant with LaSabra but we kept it a secret. Having her inside me kept us both on track. I think its with her story to where my after journey of not seeing you guys anymore really starts. So that is where I will begin and know that I havent written not because I dont want to but for other reasons you will see as you get to know the real story of what happend. I love you all so very much!!